Update ~ Carpe Diem

I haven't been posting for awhile because I've been doing my best to enjoy life outside the walls of my home. So far so good, been going well actually. I also haven't posted much lately about my disease and that's because it's been well controlled through medication, diet and exercise. However, some new symptoms did come up and require more tests. It sends home a message to me more powerful than ever to enjoy what I have right now. Had I known when I was 15 that I would be in the best shape of my life and that I should have lived a bit more, I would have.

I'm creating a bucket list for 2012 and I want to enjoy my body's abilities as they are now and love completely to those that are in my life. I've witnessed too much death of friends dying too soon and family members moving on to a better plane after they lived many decades here with me. I will never have my body back the way it was and I will forever miss it, but I'm done being a party pooper over it and I want my life back. I'm still very young with a wonderful daughter no matter what the diagnosis comes from the doctors and the lab tests, I know who I am and what I want to do with my life.