Tuesday, January 5, 2016
Oh to wake up to morning texts from someone you haven't heard from in ages. To seeing pictures of them with their family, nephews and acting like silly children. To that nagging feeling you felt that one day in Big Bear all those many, many years ago come flinging and flying back out. Seeing that face again, those arms, that smile...fk.
Everything flew back and I have no idea how to react. So those are my emotions as of right now.
I think I will just enjoy this feeling for now. I know that my heart, with the hope that is attempting to create will not happen. I will continue to pursue a life with many more children. I will enjoy this, I just, need to figure it out once the initial emotions settle.